Doubt: The Mind of an Author
Writers are usually inside our own minds more than we are in the real world. This results in some great stories for you, but difficulty in other matters. Like when we need to interact with people
You see, there is a reason why we became writers, and that reason is money.
Ha! No, seriously, the reason is because writing makes the strange things in our heads, and the equally strange outside world, make sense. So a lot of the time when you try to engage a writer in a difficult task – say, conversation – you’ll find yourself faced with a challenge as the writer is likely to give you that deer-in-headlights stare and either bolt away after a few seconds, or remain motionless and silent until you give up and try your conversational luck elsewhere.
Besides the random thoughts and ideas flitting in an out in a fashion that resembles the particle fluctuations of quantum mechanics, a writer’s mind is fairly algorithmic in circular sort of way.
Usually it starts with mild self-doubt. Like wondering if he shouldn’t have started that last sentence with something other than an adverb – the most hated word form in American English. This evolves quickly into
Crippling self-doubt. Oh god, because of that adverb the reader is going to assume he’s a hack. And because he’s a hack his books won’t sell. And because his books won’t sell he’s going to be stuck as a paramedic the rest of his lifehelping people. And because he’s going to be stuck doing such menial labor he will eventually (another adverb – it’s hopeless now!) spiral into deep depression and become desperate and rob a bank. And because he knows nothing about bank robbing, or crime in general outside of maybe downloading the torrented copy of Social Distortion’s early discography, he’s going to get caught and go to prison. This line of thinking leads to
Paranoid determination. He won’t get to the point of robbing banks. He won’t. He will write so hard that people will be forced to take notice and buy his work. They will have to notice him because he wills it. This leads to
A completed manuscript and a momentary burst of self-confidence. Look, a book. A whole book. How many people can say they’ve written an entire book? Now all that needs to be done is get it published, market to readers, create a brand, continue marketing while writing something new to keep the brand fresh and avoid losing the newfound readership and . . .
A beautiful young escort is strangled to death, her corpse discarded in a back alley dumpster. The killer’s identity is a mystery, and the homicide has gone almost unnoticed. Welcome to Middleton, where these things happen every night and the police are too busy or too jaded to notice.
Ezzy Morgan once roamed these blue collar streets as a paramedic. Here she was weaned from innocence and taught the cold-blooded nature of the human heart. Now she works as a private detective and has shut the door on shootings, stabbings, and the constant specter of death. But her life is about to be shattered when the dead woman’s only surviving friend seeks her out, looking for justice.
Clues are sparse and the trail seems to be a dead end before it has even begun. But the mystery takes a macabre turn after another death is dropped at Ezzy’s feet, and she’s hit with an ultimatum from the world of organized crime: find the killer in the next twenty-four hours . . . or die.
This murder mystery turned terrifying struggle between life and death will expose a cover-up spanning two generations involving a sadistic psychopath, a burned-out cop with a cocaine habit, and a powerful man willing to commit murder just to ensure a secret stays buried.
With the noose tightening and the clock winding down to her own demise, Ezzy must come to terms with a darkness she thought she’d left behind years ago. Nightfall has come to Middleton, and she might not live to see the dawn.
Brian White has crafted a captivating tale in the new noir. Nightfall, with its crisp prose and razor-sharp dialogue, is a thrilling tale of crime and suspense that grips you by the throat and doesn’t let go until the end.
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Genre - Crime, Noir, Mystery
Rating – R
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